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I have often experienced periods that feel like an uphill battle while meditating. I may be distracted by an outside life challenge, or just subconscious circuitry, that seems to go round and round, as if on a hamster wheel.  A loving message from an old story I knew as a child called The Little Engine that Could has helped me during these, and other times in my life. It tells of a little train, humble in scale, who was begged by teary-eyed dolls … Read More

When We Need You, You Descend

I was desperate. After finding “success” through a job on Wall Street, what I really found was my life became increasingly restless, empty, and devoid of deeper meaning. At the time my life reflected Saint Augustine’s saying, “Our hearts are restless, Lord, until they find their rest in Thee.” Through the grace of God a thought entered my mind, “You should learn to meditate.” It was soft, simple, and clear. Thankfully, I followed this whisper from my soul. While in … Read More

The Festival of Gratitude

What are you grateful for?  It’s been said that if you have one prayer in life, “Thank you!” would suffice.  Even though this year has been one of the most difficult globally and for many people personally, we still can find the hidden joy and secret of gratitude amidst the worst circumstances. Swami Kriyananda said, “Suffering is a result of delusion, not of outward circumstance. There have been people in the darkest dungeons and people suffering the worst diseases who … Read More

Soul Confirmation

“You won’t be confirmed, Philip!”  My mother was appalled at the thought that I might not become a member of the Catholic Church.  What happened?  At the age of sixteen, I missed some of the Church classes required for confirmation because I had gone on a ski trip. Because of my absence, the local priest threatened I would not be confirmed. “So what?” I responded to the priest and my mother. Certainly, I could have been more respectful in my … Read More

I Am Free in Thy Joy

When I visited Ananda Assisi last year, I befriended a young Italian man named Anthony. He never met Swami Kriyananda in person as Swamiji had left the body before Anthony visited Ananda Assisi.  He did however have a heart-to-heart meeting with Swamiji’s spirit. During his stay at Ananda Assisi, he meditated in Swami’s bedroom shrine. Swami left the body in the bedroom of his home just outside the Ananda Assisi retreat. As part of their retreat, visitors have the opportunity … Read More

Exponential Self-Realization

We’ve been hearing a lot about exponential growth these days. Unfortunately, it’s not the kind of growth we would like to see. I had a conversation about this kind of growth before the global pandemic erupted. It was of a very different nature – the exponential growth of a particular company’s stock!  Mind you, though I am married to a man who worked on Wall Street, I have absolutely no interest in the stock market. I was, however, fascinated by … Read More

Our Lady Loungewear

A few weeks ago I went shopping with Dharmadevi. We have a silent marital understanding that for the most part it’s best for me not to enter the store with her. Since it was a women’s clothing store, I eagerly utilized my “get out of shopping jail” free card and remained outside. When Dharmadevi came out of the store she said, “I had a funny experience with the store clerk.” “What happened?” I inquired. Dharmadevi told me, “I saw a … Read More