Perfect Understanding

“The Guru knows every thought you think… can you imagine? But… he understands you perfectly!” I will never forget hearing these words from a direct disciple of Paramhansa Yogananda. They were (and still are) so comforting. Yes, the Guru knows all of our faults, all of our stupid actions, all of our negativity, BUT he knows exactly how we got to where we are and exactly how we will get out of this mess of delusion. In a letter of … Read More

One-Pointed Focus

Tyagi Ram’s wife Dikshini passed away on January 23, 2021 at the Ananda Meditation Retreat. She had been in decline since before Thanksgiving and the entire Ananda LA Sangha and community had been praying for her. During these months, Tyagi Ram was faithfully by her side, always so heartbreakingly positive in his updates to us, including after their arrival at the meditation retreat. In their most difficult and painful time, both Ram and Dikshini conducted themselves with the same dignity … Read More

The Grace of the Guru

The dream started with me tied to the ground, perhaps half buried but not all the way. All I could feel was that I couldn’t move.  My gaze moved up to the top of the mountain to find an army of warriors, dressed in red and gold armor, with arrows ready to fire. I knew there was no way of getting out; their arrows were all pointed at me.  As they positioned their arms ready to fire, I felt fear … Read More

When We Need You, You Descend

I was desperate. After finding “success” through a job on Wall Street, what I really found was my life became increasingly restless, empty, and devoid of deeper meaning. At the time my life reflected Saint Augustine’s saying, “Our hearts are restless, Lord, until they find their rest in Thee.” Through the grace of God a thought entered my mind, “You should learn to meditate.” It was soft, simple, and clear. Thankfully, I followed this whisper from my soul. While in … Read More

New Year Resolutions

Upon realizing we are steadily approaching January 1st, I hurried to the nearest Target to buy a 2021 planner. I love planners as much as I love blank journals! I thought how wonderful it would be to ‘plan’ my whole year, or at least the next three months. It’s rather giggle-worthy when you consider how many people “planned” for 2020 and were thrown the ultimate curveball.   As I was shopping for a planner the initial excitement and urgency started to … Read More

I Am Free in Thy Joy

When I visited Ananda Assisi last year, I befriended a young Italian man named Anthony. He never met Swami Kriyananda in person as Swamiji had left the body before Anthony visited Ananda Assisi.  He did however have a heart-to-heart meeting with Swamiji’s spirit. During his stay at Ananda Assisi, he meditated in Swami’s bedroom shrine. Swami left the body in the bedroom of his home just outside the Ananda Assisi retreat. As part of their retreat, visitors have the opportunity … Read More

Exponential Self-Realization

We’ve been hearing a lot about exponential growth these days. Unfortunately, it’s not the kind of growth we would like to see. I had a conversation about this kind of growth before the global pandemic erupted. It was of a very different nature – the exponential growth of a particular company’s stock!  Mind you, though I am married to a man who worked on Wall Street, I have absolutely no interest in the stock market. I was, however, fascinated by … Read More